Tonight I came home after a rough day and wrote a post about a mistake I made and about how terribly awful I felt about it. I posted it in the mindset that the people who would read it are people that know and love me and understand where I'm coming from. Instead I got a comment from a stranger (I'm assuming) that totally dragged me down. I know I am sometimes negative on here (although in looking back on my posts, I think that the majority of them revolve around the cute/hilarious/bizarre parts of first grade), and I have been actively pursuing positivity and gratitude because I don't like being as negative/complain-y as I've been. Often when I get around to this at the end of the day, and my energy is absolutely drained, the complaints are all that I have left. And for that I apologize. What I might call "keeping it real" can absolutely be perceived as ungrateful whining. And that's not who I want to be.
So, um, if you don't know me, please don't read my blog. I'm not writing it for you. I'm writing it for my friends who I don't get to talk to everyday and who like to read this, or so they tell me. Please also know that I am a very loving, gentle, and affectionate teacher (at least most of the time) and I am working myself sick trying to make sure these kids learn and grow as much as possible. So please don't judge me for being crabby sometimes. And if I continue blogging (which I am considering not doing), I'll try and just keep to the positive stuff and save the frustrations for people who understand me and who understand how difficult it is to be a teacher.
The end.
Hi, and I hope this is okay that I comment. I think you should continue to blog, I like reading about your day and what it is like to teach first grade and what these kids are doing and saying.
ReplyDeletePlease don't let one negative comment bring you down (I know that's harder said than done), whether it was a stranger who just stumbled upon that one post and didn't read the others. And if you do, just delete the comment and move on. Don't let that deter you from posting what you are thinking or feeling in that moment. That's the beauty of blogs.
I blog too, about motherhood and having a toddler but do so under a pen name (for now, that might change later on) just because I wanted to keep some things private and I was okay with having other moms who I did not know in person read it and be able to relate. From both the ups and downs, because it's not always rainbows and butterflies. And somedays, I'm counting down to bedtime or in your case, the last school bell.
Christene
DO NOT STOP BLOGGING. I want to punch that person. There is a difference between complaining and venting. And honestly I always feel that your days must be so draining. You share cute, fun parts of your day. I never thought that you took anything for granted.
ReplyDeleteJulie
I love your blog!! As a fellow first grade teacher, I totally understand where you are coming from!! Some days are just not great! I like to read your blog to see what craziness you have gone thru to compare it to my crazy day!
ReplyDeleteMarriah
I randomly stumbled on this blog a while ago, as it is out there on the Internet... meaning anyone can read what you post, unless you password protect your site. I didn't see your post from yesterday, or the comment you blogged about that lead to your post today. But I can say, as a fellow educator/elementary teacher, that yes, teaching is hard. And yes, there are days where we make mistakes or do/say things we wish we could take back. But, blogging about them for the public to see, makes them exactly that... public. You open yourself up to praise and criticism, regardless of your intention for your blog or who you want your readers to be.
ReplyDeleteMy advice is keep the comments you want, delete the comments you don't want, but just know that when you blog on the Internet, anyone can see it, including strangers, or even parents of students. It is wise to be careful about what you put out there (i.e. using student's names attached to negative comments) because anyone can access it. Good luck!